I think it’s impossible to know what we may be. We can make presumptions, and based on our current selves, forecast where we might end up in life, what we will do, who we will be, etc. But, still, we will never know for sure. This statement I agree with. However, I think people tend to struggle more with who they are at present, especially people our age for whom opinions, ideas and thoughts are always changing – few of us actually know who we are. One of my best friends just came out as bisexual and said that he struggled with it for a long time, not wanting to admit it and, above all, not wanting to believe it himself. Once he came out, he was happier for a while but then started to question (and is still questioning) whether he is, in fact, just gay. Sexuality aside, I think we all have these influxes of ideas and changing options about ourselves. This is just one example, but I have seen it over and over again. At this age, people’s political views change constantly, their tastes change, their likes and dislikes change, and so on.
I think I know myself pretty well, but I still find it hard to make definitive statements about some things. I also hate uncertainty, so — and it seems ridiculous — very often when I think I’ve come up with a definitive statement about myself, I write it down. On my phone, I have a note titled “favorite snacks”, one titled “things I love”, one title “things I hate”, one titled “favorite places”, “favorite movies”, “favorite songs”, “things I’ll never do”, “things I’ve always wanted to do”, and dozens more. All of these I am constantly adding to and changing. One day I may add or remove more infrequently, but I doubt I’ll ever stop completely.
-DL
-DL
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